Ok. Why Am I Feeling Down Today?

WTH? It's Christmas Eve. Why in the world am I feeling down right now? I have a family who loves me, a new house. What is going on?

I think it's the events of the past few days that has me a little down. For starters, my mom (who's a foster parent) has two foster kids who are now being taken out of her home. The state has decided to transfer them to a different foster agency. It's a little sad to see children who have already been removed from their regular home now being moved to a different home. The kids said they wanted to stay with my mom too (they're 12 and 14), but what are you going to do?

Then I'm disappointed in the fact that my sister (my real one) is/was supposed to be doing something for me. Now it seems like she wants to back out of it. It's not a BIG deal, but it still puts a bit of a strain on some plans that I had.

Top that off with I haven't done any Christmas shopping. Truth be told, I'm actually pretty broke after shelling out more money than expected for the closing, moving and then paying new (and old) bills. I can't go out to shop yet because I'm here watching the foster kids for my mom while she goes out and does last minute shopping.

I dunno. I guess it's just all of the changes in the past few weeks that has me kind of blah. Believe it or not, I always get pretty anxious AFTER Christmas. I'm basically ready for the new year to start so that I can get started on new things in my life. This year, however, I am not waiting until the new year. As soon as Christmas is over I am changing my ways for some things. What's the sense in waiting? Might as well get started.

Now to just get past these last few hours. UGH!!!